aim snap fall

Im sorry.

2009-10-19T04:52:00.002+08:00

please stop writing indirect post about me.

you and i both know its gone, lets just leave the past dead and buried.

JESSICA<3<3<3heart.

2009-08-03T08:57:00.004+08:00

AHHGOGAAAGSDFNSDGFyummyASDUJGK?! *drools/swoons*

The Passing

2009-06-29T07:39:00.004+08:00

do you feel lost sometimes? like your in a really confused part of your life? you dont know where to turn to or talk to.. im so confused and i feel really pressured, its my studies and about the things i really love to do, i guess i just really need to get my priorities straight right after my next compy in singapore.

i miss talking to you and i really want too but somehow i always have my doubts and i just think that it wont be the right thing to do.

Rainbow Mornings

2009-06-23T01:04:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Mum,

may all you wishes come true

your ever loving son, Adrian Lim Yih Yau.

Limit My Falls

2009-06-21T23:28:00.003+08:00

i know things havent been going the way it should be.. but i want you to know i really care (:

on a happier note,

Happy Fathers Day! to my dad of course, the man who will always be respected and looked up to haha :p

Trapt

2009-06-18T22:42:00.004+08:00

Sometimes.. just sometimes i wish certain things would just remain the same and never change. I wish that i could still talk to you the same way i use too and still give you the same amount of respect you deserve. I don't feel safe here in this place anymore, i feel so vulnerable now even in my own home. Somethings missing, something here just isnt right anymore.. I know ive been a disappointment to you countless number of times, but deep down i just want to make you proud. I just want to make you happy. Although, this time around things are different and my lifestyle now is pretty much oblivious.. I still need you to understand, i still need your advice..

Explosions In The Sky

2009-06-14T08:23:00.002+08:00

How can some people can be so dam self centered, you do not just walk out and give up on us after failing once. You walked out on us, just because we as a team as a family as brothers, because we failed once. So what kind of person does that make you? How the hell would you expect me to even strike a conversation with you now.

I understand you have your reasons, you werent comfortable with some people. Fair enough, talk to me, talk to the team. Obviously we'll always have you back. You do not just walk out without trying. It just shows that you did not put in any effort to fix things. I was there when you needed me, now where the hell are you?

I treated you like family and you back stabbed me. You have no right to apologise or feel sorry for me or yourself. My main goal was to bury them. Now i aim to fucken bury you. Im sorry but this time its personal, i dont take the same bullshit twice.

[ESP]'NAGA

2009-06-08T00:24:00.004+08:00

It will only take one downfall to make us realise,
one downfall to make us learn from our mistakes,
one downfall to make us pick up the pace to be stronger,
and one comeback to fucken bury them.

Baby Could You Blow My Heart Up?

2009-05-27T03:05:00.001+08:00

listening to: starstruck by lady gaga

On the 22nd of May which was last friday me and my team [ESP]'NAGA competeted in the ASGF Singapore for SA !

We did really well playing together and won all of our games and emerged as champions of the tournament, yay! we also made friends with alot of other sg teams and our team got interviewed by a number of reporters before and after we won the competitition hahaha :p

check this link out http://www.razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/lifestyle/30890.html , youll be able to see me and my team celebrating haha (:

and on the last day while we were waiting for our taxi to take us to SIA, the unexpected happened.. me and cass were resting our eyes at the hotels sofa and we got approached by this shemale.. she wanted to take a picture with both of us and ask for both our numbers and email address. omfg.. her named was 'angel' and she invited us to thailand to stay at her apartment for free and she wanted to introduce her 'hot girlfriends' to us.. gaaah im so glad our taxi came soon and we told her/him that we had to go :X

Cassidy Kazaf Gan , Maple Mushroom , and Me !hahaha

[ESP]'NAGA CHAMpions !

JOOSUC, cHan, Rhapsodyx, fLameShot, REALpink

me and cass got bored waiting for our flight back :p

and ps: a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my 2 good friends SHUWEI and DADA (:

why picture so smaaaaall

gd'night guys!

You've Got MY Attention

2009-05-25T03:36:00.003+08:00

im so exhausted, back from my singapore trip.
im so proud of us [ESP]'NAGA

overall singapore was a good trip, more updates tmr.
sleep time, gd'night

Feels Like Insomia

2009-05-18T23:39:00.001+08:00

aw. come on dont leave just because you cant cope, we'll be missing you.

Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay.

2009-04-30T00:35:00.004+08:00

my 19th birthday with my class mates, they bought me a cake and everything. they even tried to "surprise" me. nice try guys hahaha!

thank you guys it was really meaningful and its the thought that counts right.

thank to all my other buddies who sent me smses and gave me calls/ even from overseas! i love you guys so much.

oh yea i didnt celebrate my birthday cause i had a law exam the very next day and had to study cause i didnt wanna fail like how i did my first paper.

but this year was really meaningful although different :)

btw really hot girl? WRONG think again.. took this quiz on facebook saying that shes is a he :(

how sad for all the guys out there seriously..

Lips Like Sugar

2009-04-14T19:44:00.011+08:00

Cyber Fusion was held on the 10-12th of April at Cyberjaya's MMU Grand Hall

As you can see it was a big event and there were many pcs for the compy as well as malaysia's attempt to beat the " longest on going LAN party" in the world, which they proudly did with the time of 40hours none stop.

My team also participate in a game which was SA - Korea's no 1 FPS game
and the result im glad to say we did really well and emerged 1st runner up,

really am proud of us, we gave our best and kept our heads held high even though we were up against stronger opponents including PUGGIES msia no 1 and Team Xyphre singapore no 1 which we beat 10-0 hahaha! bloody singaporeans fcking kiasu emo cunts dont want to shake hands after game oh weeeeelllll!

p/s : congrats to the participants of the LAN party who broke the world record and set a new world record of 40 hours..

HUUURAAAAHH!! Chronos! :p

Sudden Attack Top 8

Team Chronos 1 and 2

Team Chornos-GG ( cesc me david(chronos boss) attif ramon(chronos righthand) lee but wheres my 5th man kevin haha!)

IMBA pairing !

thats all for now !

PEACE !

and do you have lips like sugar? if you do tell me (;

Love Is a Riddle

2009-03-28T17:14:00.003+08:00

Do i stirke to you as a Lansi person?

I hope not, i think you just need to get to know me a little better (;

Cyber Fusion 2009 : Here I come !

Happy Days

2009-03-23T05:26:00.007+08:00

Hotlink Games & Anime Festival

fun day with friends, even though in SA we (Sudden Attack, no1 Korea FPS Game) lost to koreans in the 3rd elimination rounds T_T

We Met SONIC~

and BOMMMMMMMB-?ERRRrMAAAAAN :D

And On the 6th - 8th Of March, the QUAS - Gaming/DWTD team went to Ipoh for the UTP (University Technology of Petronas)

QUAS -Gaming / DWTD (CHAMPIONS & 1st Runner Ups)

QUAS - DWTD

thats all guys, till next time peace (:

fCukkk

2008-12-24T18:43:00.002+08:00

Dont ruin my Christmas please..

Merry Christmas everyone happy holidays.

:)

2008-12-16T20:01:00.002+08:00

This Blog is currently dead until further notice byebye :)

. . . . . .

Midnight Apology Caught In The Rain

2008-07-27T02:01:00.006+08:00

listening to: tongue tied by october fall

One Down.

2 To Go

MAA

! CHEALSEA !

3months and were not shaking.

Making Memories of Us.

2008-06-27T22:45:00.006+08:00

She wakes me up beyond my waking hours.
I love her.
She takes 16 miss calls to wake me up.
I love her.
She hits me when I bite my nails/skin.
I love her.
She stops me from being a bum.
I love her.
She says ' You're a GEEK '
I love her.
She laughs too loud, that scares me.
I love her.
She is an annoying reminder/alarm clock.
I love her.
She calls me at 5 in the morning.
I love her.
She distracts me from my CS addiction.
I love her.
She says ' I heard you ' way too much.
I love her.
She rants, bitches, whines, complains, and screams.
I love her.

She knows my timetable better than me.
I love her.
She teases and insults me but loves me back.
I love her.

She is everything I ever need.

She is my girlfriend.

I love her.
I love you too, boyfriend.

bellyboo*You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you

When "I Love You's" Run Into Each Other

2008-05-06T23:49:00.009+08:00

listening to: lets get married by archie star

this is cute, jeff thomas is talented,

does this remind you of anything baby? :)

:She said "Hey baby baby boy, why you always look so sad?
You got the whole world in the palm of your hand."
:He said "But it don't mean a thing if you're not next to me.

I'm yours.

2008-05-04T17:03:00.002+08:00

Love,
Honeypot :)

Rawr you.

My Silhouette

2008-04-30T14:45:00.013+08:00

listening to: dig by incubus

we finally had enough time for each other to spend time

with each other and this was apparently my birthday dinner..

a little bit for that huh :p

so i took belle for dinner and movie at one utama,

she said she enjoyed herself :)

take 1, fail..

take 2, no that bad laa

entertaining ourselves, this was kinda funny

________x: remind me that we'll always have each other when everything else is gone.

Your Taste is My Attention

2008-04-27T19:01:00.007+08:00

listening to: with you by chris brown

I had a party on the 26th.
Good food, good crowd, good friends.
Basically great party :)

And this is the only picture i took with my camera with belle,
but beats all her other photos haha.

Adrian - 27th April - Isabelle

________x.: im so glad to be yours.

PARTY AT MY CRIB

2008-04-26T18:48:00.002+08:00

Go ME!
It's my birthday
I'm gonna party like it's my birthday (duh)
i'm gonna sip Bacardi like it's my birthday
And you know I don't give a fuck
cause it's not your birthday!

I'm gonna get wastedddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

2008-04-24T08:41:00.001+08:00

I am an EMO KID.
but I do love rainbows.

With You.

2008-04-20T16:17:00.007+08:00

20th of April 2008,

ELMO LOVES RAPHAEL :)

haha.

I've got the weirdest imaginations ever =P

I like to play around and expand my creativity using Belle's stuff toys :)

It gives me great pleasure.

On the other hand, I have a feeling Elmo hates me :(

But he's my ONLY LIVING BEST FRIEND! ( I like to think he's alive, helps me with the expansion of my thoughts and imagination)

We pillow talk most of the time and now he refuses to talk to me. He just stares back at me with his BIG POPPING OUT PLASTIC EYES.

You notice from the picture above? He's just staring, not moving at all :(

This is depressing.

sniffles :)

*bella bella bobella, you know you love me. rawr :)

Punk Goes Acoustic

2008-04-10T00:22:00.004+08:00

listening to: three cheers for five years by mayday parade

for all that's been said..
i hope that my actions pleases all instead of disappointing,
and honestly i think ive done all my best to try make everyone happy,
always taking things from another persons perspective never only mine.

so forgive me if ive not been the greatest person to be with,
but i will try to push myself forward.

sincerely i would never give up friendship on any basis,
and like ive told you before, although it is a fact that ive just gotten to
know you i feel that you've become one of my closest.

i am humble enough to admit that you have always been there for me,
i appreciate all that you've done for me, may it be big or small favors
i do still take the time to think about them to reflect, but knowing
how you feel towards me now with my current situation really
upsets me in the sense that for the first time, your support and blessings
both declined.

if you still choose to go with your decision,
i will respect you and your decision but do me a favor to talk to me first.

I do regret more than I admit.

________x : It's easier to be broken, It's easier to hide :)

Figtree

2008-04-03T22:25:00.006+08:00

listening to : pik pigface yen ranting.

so debra skipped college today and goodness,
i missed her tonnes.
all thanks to fever and food poisoning haha.

i ate lunch at figtree restaurant and had some overpriced cheeseburger.
debra came to my rescue had a cup of warm water and that wasnt very necessary to know.

my birthday is on the 28th of april and i want to have a hugeeeeeeee party.
like those on mtv's sweet sixteen bashes,
bloody spoiled brats.
somehow that sounds like me but whatever.
this is my birthday list and my dad promised to get me either:
1)any new car
2)anything i want basically

for those of you who know me personally, you should know that i want to get wasted on my 18th like every birthday so cheers for booze!

if you think i'm adrian, think again.
because if you do, you are as hell stupid like eu gene sia.
: )

Turnover.

2008-03-30T12:51:00.010+08:00

listening to : never alone by barlow girls

you must be wondering why a retard like me is finally updating a proper post on this corny blog.

so college has been pretty eventful.
before i stepped in HELP,
i thought i was gonna be some loserfied loner until i met the one and only debra fong.
she practically saved my life in college such as preventing me not getting lost in college since i don't even have my own timetable and also letting me copy her maths homework.

debra fong has indeed made an impact in my life. she made a difference in me,
to become a better person.
which is why,
she's one of the bestest friends i could ever ask for.
i remember the first time we actually got to know each other was when i was lost and ended up in the wrong class because the econs lectures' venue was changed and i didn't have the timetable.
until i saw debra who was also another lost soul like me and that's how we became friends XD

though there were hard times with her,
i still love her as a friend and love going to college because she likes to mengada in college.
yes,
this sums up that she's one helluva noisy bitch who can't keep her mouth shut ha ha.

this is to suff from me and dubs

don't give me that -_________________-'' look because hey it's me debra fong in the house yo!
i'm trying really hard to blog like addy now don't sue me ha ha: )

love you addy

Poison Kiss

2008-03-20T00:08:00.005+08:00

listening to : back where we belong by the last goodnight

this is sad i should really start blogging again..

________x : You kiss me, kill me, push me, pull me, leave me wanting more

Sunsets And Car Crashes

2007-12-14T19:22:00.000+08:00

listening to: wont go home without you

fucken emo song made me emo haha
13th December, Sri KDU's prom night '07
my date was none other then the lovely ms teh sze wen.to sum up this year's prom in my humble opinion, this years prom wasnt so much of a big hit or nothing spectacular.
the food was bad, the mc's were a bunch of horny people who
kept talking about their poles and what not.
and apparently they were from fak fm. or something -___- wtf?
but we all have to give credit to vishal for pulling this function off
at such a limited amount of time. so here's to you bro!

prom night party pictures!

baby and me

tiffany and adrian

adrian and omar

the bands did good job performing, lead vocalist from emir, jo, qingyang, to william haha

after prom there was the after party at Asian Heritage Row,

mojo was a dump haha which pub or club runs out of alcohol.

but at least bar club did a pretty good job for all of us.

most of us spent the night at concorde hotel.

drinking, fagging, meeting new people throughout the night.

it was a pretty fun day all and all but i apologeis to amelia

for not having morning dimsum at concorde.

yes dimsum at concorde is the fucken bomb haha.

the real down part about the day was when some of luck really ran out
when firstly syafiq's and shuyen's camera's got stolen along as L's
handbag the worst part was when vishal was a victim of snatch theft.

and that shes in italy now :(

Penantian Hidup

2007-11-14T17:43:00.000+08:00

listening to: kisah tak sempurna by samsons

i apologise not updating this site for a very very long time,
as some of you already read my computer crashed but it
turned out for the better i guess.

i started concentrating and studying more for my spm
examinations and heck i got an imac thrown in along with
it as well haha, but the sad thing this apple computer screen
is kinda big for cs so it wouldnt be that comfortable playing
on it.

now i realise how all the ex form 5's feel during spm,
is a fuckjhbsdjfbslkjgb-en stressful time.
what ive seen is they were so stress they fought amongst
friends, alahhh waikit relllaaaaax take it eaaaaaasy~

well the first week of spm is almost over,
and i might be heading to aussie once exams are done
but i ill be back for prom so dont worry haha.
and ill be back joining more competitive dota tourney
hopefully roy and daniel will let me back in mmo-1
not forgetting competitive counterstrike.

wish me luck for killer addmath,physics and chem.

Vulnerable

2007-09-15T09:40:00.000+08:00

alcohol one of the essentials needed at a party,
it loosen the moods comforts the person and most
importantly get the party started.

but what happens when its consumed a little to much?
maybe for the stronger it wont do much but for most of
us it limits our thoughts, blinds our judgement and wrong
our doings.

my computer monitor is now smashed in 2 because he
consumed too much alcohol,
he didnt want to hear what i had to say or even talk things
out but ended up exploding contriversially slamming the
head of his golf club towards the table and without
much hessitation took another swung at the frame of the
computer monitor and the third time again towards the face
of the monitor causing it to shatter and the glass container
behind it to drop and break as well.

the sound of the dropping coins and marbles could be heard
pass the halls of my house, waking my sister as well as the maids,
i couldnt take much of it any longer so tried to leave taking my
wallet, watch, and phone only to be stopped by him again.
only now would he have the sense to talk to me with a purpose,
i forced my way through saying i hope you're happy with
whatever you do and just left to my room.

many would who know me would think i would be furious with him
or sulking by myself but honestly im just really disappointed.

Seventeen

2007-09-08T00:20:00.000+08:00

listening to: sway by the perishers

yesterday the 6th of September was szewen's birthday,
i bought her a coach wallet which she really likes.
i thought that it really suited her
hopefully her mom approves of it haha.

before her birthday amelia lak and myself rushed
ourselves to klcc to help me find szewen a present
spend 3-4 hours there trying to look for something
suitable, and trust me it wasn't very easy because
her taste and her expectations are always very high
but heck i never minded it because i do love her.

today was the 7th, with a little help from everyone
especially sabby we managed to plan a dinner for her,
it was a table for 20 at the apartment.
most of the people who were invited came so it was
a sign of relief.

hopefully everyone enjoyed themselves including myself,
who came so exhausted right away after futsal.
well everyone looked good especially my dear szewen :)

the blur pictures were taken by my n80,
mahai dam bad quality.. -_-
it totally deserves to get smashed.
the clearer ones were taken with szewen's phone.
i actually smiled alot during camwhoring session haha.

jack shuwei and myself

myself amelia and leem, aw haha.

sabby and adriano

group photo

when they were sober haha, some ended up looking
like tomatoes.

happy 17th birthday baby, i love you.

Nobody Puts Baby In The Corner

2007-08-31T12:59:00.000+08:00

listening to: holiday by boys like girls

merdeka's eve was a dam blast!
booked a table for 25 at the curve's sanctuary,
had a mix up in the reservations although it was booked,
they expected us to sit beside the storage room and
even though the area was big the view sucked,
sabby and i complained and got better tables at the sanctuary bridge outlooking the sky.

heard people saying laundry got raided for under aged drinkers,
but lucky for us sanctuary only got raided about 3am yay.

things were going good everybody drinking, laughing and having a good time,
and some people who i thought never would touch a fag actually did.
the worst scene at the party was when the bill came -_-
even though everyone paid their share of money i had to pay triple :/
and szewen's birthday is coming i'm so screwed...

pictures will come i promise haha

Paper Walls

2007-08-18T02:48:00.000+08:00

listening to: decipher reflectors from reality by play radio play!

merdeka carnival ,
the guys from my class did the haunted house and as usual
haunted houses always turns out to be a success,
people really dont mind paying rm5 to walk through a dark
room stacked with tables , covered with newspapers and
lurking with man made ghost.

but the sad thing was, i got into an arguement with one of
my classmates which might have gone bad if the others
didnt hold us back.

and the sadder thing is that this wasnt the first time..
same reason , is that i hate people who have no patience.

the girls did a mocktail booth selling
1.Shirley Temples
2.Blue Lagoons
3.Paradise
4.Shuey Jelly
5.Addiction

suet was the organizer and she came up with all the recipes
so my answer to you would be yes , i think you'd make a
good bartender haha :D
sorry for the dullness , no photo's totally forgotten.

just came back yum-chaing with a few people
3am dead tired now so gd'night.

oh yea and before i forget,

i love you , happy 16th.

Sitting Waiting Wishing

2007-07-26T16:29:00.000+08:00

listening to: there she goes by six pence none the richer

today i found out how someone can care so much for another person.
whether its attention seeking or not it doesn't really matter,
only to know deep down i know its done for a reason or a certain cause.

it doesn't really matter what you do or even what you say,
doesn't matter whether you bleed or even cry.
what matters is when you do it or say it you should mean it.
remembering not to have a misunderstanding over something
so insignificant , than maybe with a little hope things can be avoided.

today i witnessed one of my dearest friend in that same situation,
i don't know why i didn't speak my mind or show any intention whatsoever,
i do care for her i hope she knows and most people do too.

The Night Will Go On As Follows

2007-07-22T15:28:00.000+08:00

listening to: baby blue by the early november

was at ss2 yesterday for smm selangor which i joined with my team ,
registration was about rm160 i think , what i rip off haha.
but i guess its for experience and exposure.
met many teams there some good some better.

we beat many teams during the training session ,
such as Clutch Gamers , cG2 . niCr team cA ,
and not forgetting mmorpg's team 1.

my leader was impressed with our performance ,
so i hope my team keeps on improving.

btw for those of you who doesn't know ,
i was referring to smm : dota competition :D

been trying really hard to study its hard for me to just sit down
and read a history reference book or anything else im not sure why
but with a little help from szewen i might just pull it throug .
i hope you do to vivienne its coming you know..

fuckuasdasdhbklgdfgbasdasd-ing SpM :/

You Meant It

2007-07-09T05:49:00.001+08:00

listening to: hands down by dashboard confessional

so much meaning in this song..
my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
so won't wont you kill me , so i die happy.
my heart is yours to fill or burst ,
to break of bury , or wear as jewelery ,
which ever you prefer.

i know i haven't been updating in a long while ,
and i guess its because im lazy so please bare with me.

anyway been having minor headaches these past couple of days ,
not sure why but maybe it has something to do with me staying up
really late and wake up really early for tuitions.

today's also a holiday thanks to the swimming gala ,
i guess a break for all the swimmers who participated.
and im so proud of szewen for winning gold even though
she said she slowed down alot.
congrats dear :)

mm.. watched transformers with a couple of friends
last friday instead of futsal cause was injured ,
this form fat form 1 kid "super flying kicked"
me during a friendly football match haha.
no laughing matter though hurt like shit.

oh yea transformers... THE FUCKING BOMB !

was looking for that and found the other FUCKING BOMB !

transformers was just plain entertaining ,
people who haven't seen should really do.

Light Grenades

2007-06-21T17:50:00.001+08:00

listening to: hey there delilah by the plain white t's

been updating really slowly i apologise,
i really havent been putting my priorities straight
but i guess i really have to get things sorted out and start studying
20 more weeks to the upcoming spm examinations .

instead of going to school to watch paramount ,
went to blitz with 8 other guys .
for lunch went to ou and adrian tan was bragging about cendol..
was at mark's asam laksa , had to admit it was pretty good .

missed syafiq's party last weekend cause i already had plans ,
joined the smm competitions at wangsa maju's tbun .
everything was going well until we were against cybertime-1 Roa
so called msia no 1 team , all and all had a good time .

anyway randoms.. ,

forever and ever .

:I feel her smooth skin slighty
brush agaisnt the back side of my arm

tell me what you guys think about the song :)

Palm Trees And Power Lines

2007-06-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

listening to : memory by sugarcult

holidays have been a real drag , fugging boring shit.
sleeping at 3-4am waking up at 3pm everyday..
12 hours of sleep can really give you a serious migrain .

done nothing but movies , futsal , dota , eat , sleep..
oh amelia wants me to do something which would cost nothing so im kinda lost and she still hasnt gotten back to me :|
so get back to me.

oh yea what would a blog be without pictures ,

shuwei's party , lighting dam off iish.

ahh much better :)

thats all i had from shuwei's party , maaaaybe ill get others from her .

: there you go diandra..
: i dont just look for you cause im bored you idiot .

This may never start.
Tearing out my heart.
I'd be your memory.

edit.

forgot to mention i met a dota goddess Vivienne
happy or not ? kena diu-ed

Colours Inside My World

2007-05-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

listening to : its not over by secondhand seranade

i finally managed to beat my lazyness and update my music library

download some john mayers , secondhand seranade , jack johnson , m.c.r , snow patrol , kaiser cheifs , james morrison , +44 , good charlotte , augustana , avril and.. carrie underwood haha .

i know , its not basicly my usual dose of emo music but amelia told me to cut down as i really helps so ill try my best alright .

Under The Covers

2007-05-17T20:06:00.000+08:00

listening to : kenangan terindah by samsons

first week of exams is finally over ,
feeling this little burden over my shoulders lifted ,
but second week is just around the corner so i guess its back to studying .

by the way thanks for pushing me and helping me study,
really does mean alot to me .

even though i screwed up my math 1 and physics 3 haha :/

pictures i promised to post a long time ago .

klcc , dior

during lantern festival

open view from my house

enjoy :)

:awake and unafraid .

Take It All Away

2007-05-11T14:26:00.000+08:00

listening to : face down by the red jumpsuit apparatus

ever wondered how a simple cry could fill you with such guilt ,
how one tear from that someone could just simply break you ,
or knowing someone hurting for you just kills .

as far as i know , things like that breaks me .

everyday , people judge one another by what bullshit their doing , by what their wearing .
people always tend to compare themselves to one another , thinking to beat the other person making him or her the bigger person .
if it makes you a better person to do so , fucking go on .

when your not thinking straight and when emotions clouds your mind you make decisions . then when you settle down and start thinking about it . you figured , why did i put it before myself .

: you can take it all away,
i dont need it ,
underneath , ill still be the same .

Only One

2007-05-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

listening to: stolen by dashboard confessional

1st of may , couldnt remember anything but headed down to klcc around 7+
spiderman 3 premier babaaay .
and to tell you the truth it was pretty good :)

soon after the movie , family felt thirsty and headed to chinoz .
the only place with the ' tower beer ' .
1 metre in height of pure satisfying good taste of golden liquid known as carlsberg haha :D

the ' tower beer ' .

by the way , big match tonight liverpool vs chelsea .
hoping for chelsea to win to tighten the gap .
after all , chelsea fan here ;)

: your the closest thing to me now , never wanna lose youu..
: im youursss :)

Wonderful World

2007-04-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

listening to: maybe misery by quietdrive

to some people i might be a liar , a disappointment , a bad friend .
and even those who i very well knew were my closest friends judge me in the worst ways .
but no matter how bad it gets , you know i'd forgive you without you even asking .

on the 28th of april , i disappointed most of my friends .
couldnt throw a huge party for them , couldnt let them celebrate it for me .
but i hope all is forgiven eh ;)

spent the afternoon at curve with some guys , the night with my family .

kg and jocean's driver having a hell of a good time sharing icecream , tgif .

syaf , daniel , tgif .

chyuen , adrian , overseas restaurant .

nikki , adrian , overseas restaurant .

candid :)

polo-t finally got , birthday present from miss pauline , thank you :)

Buried A Lie

2007-04-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

listening to: from yesterday by 30 seconds to mars

most of the time words or a certain scentence can have a really huge impact on a person.
flooded with so many accusations at all the wrong time can really bring some one down.
knowing not the effects of what he/she said to the other person is the sad thing.

at the end of it all , all a person really needs is company.
and thankfully my backbone-ed amelia and tiffany got me covered :)

oh my dad decided not to have my party ,
im alright with it because i told him to late with out preparation.
guess no margarita's and ribena cocktails for everyone ,
apologies to amelia and tiffany ( i know you guys were really looking forward to that ;) )

random picture of me today at juice works .

Home

2007-04-25T14:04:00.000+08:00

listening to: home by michael bublè

ever wondered how much a simple phone call in the morning from that certain someone can make you feel so loved , cared .

started of my day waking up at 1.30pm , yes i skipped school .

it was bird park day so it just didnt happen for me , stay home inside and had a scone for lunch :)

scone - ed haha

by the way , you know how somtimes people can be so indecisive about the smallest of things?
well for me i had to choose to host a party or not to host a party .

it was really fustrating at the same time because i wanted my friends over but i was lazy to host it what would they do in my house besides eat get drunk and dance mm..

so my 2 buddies amelia lak and tiffany yow offered to help me . wow :)
im really gratefull and we'll just have to see what the party turns out to be .

say hello to bob , drew him during tuition a couple weeks back , tiffany drew the sun haha .

the roses i did a couple weeks back too .

By Myself

2007-04-24T18:05:00.000+08:00

listening to : seventeen by the red jumpsuit apparatus

i know some people may look and judge me as a hypocrite as im typing this down ,
but ive made a decision to actually start a blog .
i do have my reason and a certain someone persuaded me into doing this .

i use to think that bloggers just blog to seek attention from other spouses ,
but well i soon realized that they do blog for a reason , and i also recently found out that a certain number of people even get paid to blog .
way to go bloggers haha :)

moving on , today wasnt so much of a great of a day had to spend 8.30 - 3.30 sitting my ass down on this hard ass chair listen to this sex ed talk .

it was raining after hours and got soaking wet by the time i reached home , long story . but im feeling pretty down about it all so im just gonna sleep it off .